This has been a pervading thought the past few weeks. It really just hit me.
I don’t fit in… and I’m okay with that!
Currently I’m in my hometown visiting family, and the people who I’m crossing paths with just don’t seem to get me. They don’t understand. They think I’m different. That I’m weird.
Have you ever felt like this?
Ever told someone what you are doing, or what you want to be doing, and they just look at you like “huh?”
I’ve been feeling like that recently, and for me, it’s a good thing.
It’s a sign. People who are ordinary don’t change the world. I want to make shit happen. I have plans, goals, and ambitions. I’ve been taking action for years. I read and study, and dig into research. I implement what I learn.
I know that where I currently am is not where I want to be. I am here temporarily, and while I am here, it’s okay if people think I’m weird. I’m “practicing” not giving a shit.
I am driving down to Florida in a few months and I will live their for the next 12-24 months, gearing up for my Pan American Journey (traveling from Mexico to Argentina).
All of this not fitting in is just a reaffirmation that I am doing what is most important to me and doing what aligns with my values.
I feel like I am in the right place at the right time.
A few days back, I was with an old friend and I shared with him my new realization. He didn’t get it either. He seemed to give me a strange face when I told him how excited I was that I didn’t fit in.
Frankly, I find it quite dull, lame, and boring to fit in… to do what everyone else does. To remain stagnant. In fear of change. More comfortable in long-term pain, then to step on the path and do what they want. Am I being to harsh? Am I being rude to those who wish to do what everyone else does. I could be… but fuck it – I have to be authentic to myself. If I care too much about what others think (in order to avoid the pain of discomfort), then in turn, I end up avoiding my life. I am not judging those who are not like me (okay, in all honesty, I still do a bit… but hey, I am honest, and I am working on this). I know that everyone is exactly where they need to be and that life is working it’s way out just fine.
By seeing the way other people think and the way they live their lives, it helps me realize more and more how I want to live mine.
Ever feel like you don’t fit in?
It’s okay and it’s totally cool.
What do you do about this new awareness?
Maybe it’s a sign that you need to move forward.
What does it mean to move forward?
To move forward means to progress.
To make changes.
To move towards that which scares you, but at the same is something you really want to do.
For me, I take it as a calling and a confirmation, that where I am & what I am doing in only temporary.
I am ready to embark on my journey.
And I’m okay if I don’t fit in.